I couldn’t find the quote where it says that if you try to protect yourself from sadness you will protect yourself from happiness. This is the perfect quote for where I am today. I sit at the precipice of something amazing and something terrifying. Nicole & I are buying a house here in Providence, Rhode […]
Tornadoes are touching down, and we are on the top floor. The lightning and thunder are instantaneous. Fear is such a hard feeling to decide whether to give in to it or ignore. If the fear is true, we can die; if the fear is false, we can miss out on living. Sometimes when I […]
Today was the first day the acceptance that I am here permanently has seeped in instead of that dissociative thought that I am just here for a week and then going “home”. I am “home” now and it is an alien planet that some call Rhod Island. It has been a weird transition because […]
What I Read With my wife and I moving from a farmhouse on the edge of a haunted cherry orchard and the sky is endless to a more urban setting on the east coast encased in lights, I can’t stop thinking about the book, Poetics of Space by Gaston Bachelard. The book is about the […]
Part I – How I Stopped Loving A Place The leaves are falling off the cherry trees and turning them back into the haunted orchard where leaves crackle and owls hoot. The mystery is even creepier when it is a full moon and you can look into the orchard with clarity and still think that […]
The Fool was swept in the strong ocean currents. He was dragged across rocks. He could see land in the distance when he could get his head above the surf. His strength was getting sapped fighting the currents. He was having a hard time getting breaths of air. Maybe the Devil was protecting him from […]
I’m not sure how old I was, my brother was there, my parents told me I was adopted. All they knew was that my biological father was Sicilian. Sicily became to be this place of magic and mystery to me. Sicilian customs, such as Catholicism and the Mafia, we’re attractive to me. Before I go […]
There used to be a house in this picture. Between that holly tree and the monstrous ugly building in the background stood a little perfect house that I used to live in. I only lived there for three years, but they were huge years. Suddenly the space that so much happened in is completely gone. […]
Home has been a theme for me and this blog. It has been a fascination for me since I can remember remembering. I want to feel like I am home. For most of my life I have not felt that way. I always feel like a tourist, or a stranger, or an alien. Sometimes I […]
Meditation for August 21st, 2016 Moving We are movers. We actually historically moved more than stayed in one place. The idea of home is a completely social construct, but we all try and make a home wherever we are. When we move we must take our whole home apart and put it together again somewhere […]