It was the second of this month a year ago that I left work and headed to the hospital because I thought I was having a heart attack, but instead found out that I had stage three cancer. Now I’m trying my hardest to join my normal life again. It actually isn’t as easy as […]
This is the first day of my brand new life. I woke up today without the crushing sense of dread that comes with waiting to die, even though I was just waiting to find out if I was going to die. I woke up this morning feeling free, which is not as awesome as it […]
I was checking people out at my work when this lady started complaining me about the price of garlic. She kept saying that garlic is the price of chicken. She was very upset that her garlic was ringing up at one dollar and twelve cents, and I could think about was how I’m going to […]
I have my CT scan appointment scheduled next week on the 18th. I got the call last Thursday, and it has reminded me how scared I am. My oncology appointment is on the 20th, so finally I can get a fucking answer.What if you had five years left on earth? What if you actually had […]
This has been the first summer in a long, long time that I have enjoyed. I have been in rivers, pools and in the cooling winds of a hill top at night. I have been naked several times swimming and lying in the hot sun. I’ve peeled, burnt, been bitten by insects & spiders and […]
I know, I’m sorry, I haven’t written in weeks. You were all probably at the edge of your seats wondering what I have been feeling lately. Is there a new food fad that he could blast? Does he still have cancer? Is he dating again? What’s his thoughts about vaping at juggalo festivals? All questions […]
After a person loses everything, after a person digs himself out of the rubble of his life, after the dust settles and he can see the sun again there is nothing. Now that I’ve made it to the other side of disease, homelessness (living with my parents, but still), being broken up with, unemployment and […]