My wife and I married six months ago. It was spring, the flowers were blooming, the sun would peak between showers, and we were walking into something that neither of us thought possible. Both of us were in a transition in life. She was still walking away from cooking and trying to find a job […]
There used to be a house in this picture. Between that holly tree and the monstrous ugly building in the background stood a little perfect house that I used to live in. I only lived there for three years, but they were huge years. Suddenly the space that so much happened in is completely gone. […]
It’s really easy to fall out of the practice of writing. If you go a few days, then you try and open up a notebook or a blank word document and just stare at it waiting for something to come to mind. I think one of the greatest causes of writing block is stopping for […]
Last Sunday I got married. Not even my imagination could have imagined such a perfect and magical ceremony and intimate reception. It only took such a perfect person to help get to that ritual, and Nicole is that perfect person. The next morning was weird, because despite what I had thought and what I had […]
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A quarter century ago I tried to not drink. You’d think that would be super easy, or depending on who you are, really hard. I wasn’t sure that I’d stay sober that long, or if I thought I wanted to be sober, or if it was something I could do, but I knew that the […]
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For the second time in my 42 years of life, I have successfully finished cancer chemotherapy treatment. The tests came back good and there are no signs of cancer in my body. I have waited a long time after the last treatment for this appointment. Now I get to be cancer free again. Like last […]
“All right,” said Deep Thought. “The Answer to the Great Question…” “Yes..!” “Of Life, the Universe and Everything…” said Deep Thought. “Yes…!” “Is…” said Deep Thought, and paused. “Yes…!” “Is…” “Yes…!!!…?” “Forty-two,” said Deep Thought, with infinite majesty and calm. -Douglas Adams Today I turn 42. Which, if you didn’t know, is the answer to […]
Four years ago I was diagnosed with stage three cancer. This has turned into an anniversary like my birthday or my sobriety date, except no one really celebrates it with me. I don’t really know how I should feel about today other than my life is completely different now. I also quit smoking cigarettes that […]
I am engaged to get married. I was pretty sure that I would never be engaged. Not because no one would want to, or that I hate the institution of marriage, but just that it wouldn’t happen. There is this threshold that one walks through to be ready for that kind of commitment. It’s not […]
Home has been a theme for me and this blog. It has been a fascination for me since I can remember remembering. I want to feel like I am home. For most of my life I have not felt that way. I always feel like a tourist, or a stranger, or an alien. Sometimes I […]