Meditation for April 26th
Animal Totem: The Wolf
The wolf is a mighty beast that is feared by many. They hunt, eat, and survive; as a pack, they hunt, eat, and survive together. They use a pack strategy to catch prey. Each wolf plays a part in the pack. There is the Alpha, the Bitch, the Beta, and the Lone Wolf. Who is the lone wolf who has to hunt, eat, and survive alone?
The “alpha” wolf is the leader of the pack. This is just the big dog that has no qualms about killing and hurting others to remain in power. Leaders are never actually leaders because they can intimidate and keep the pack in constant fear of what they don’t understand. This is why Christianity is still around, not because it is the best religion, but the religion with the biggest armies—spirituality at nuclear weapon point. If someone has the alpha wolf in their totem, it means they are feared, not liked.
The “bitch” is the leading female wolf. Like the alpha wolf, the bitch is fine cutting other bitches down to show who is top dog. When one draws this in their animal totem, it means they lack ethical guidance in their relationships with others. All of their actions are based on not being the prettiest, the smartest, or the most popular, and on becoming a group’s maternal figure. A bitch will mother you when you are down, but she will throw to the hungry pups if she thinks you are a threat to her leadership.
The “beta” dog is the one who knows how to follow and is easily dominated by the alpha and the bitch wolves. You are so scared of having opinions about who you are and who you are as a person if you pick this as your animal totem. As is usually the case with an alpha dog or when dating a bitch, the beta is so scared to leave them that they will allow ethics and morals to liquify if it means being liked by the rest of the pack.
Most men and some women will think they are a “lone wolf” because they don’t accept others. A lone wolf is someone who is not liked by anyone and is not allowed in any pack. Either a lone wolf must be right all the time, or it is just completely and utterly annoying to the point that the pack kicks the poor creature out so that it is left alone in the wilderness. Lone wolves usually die from not surviving without a pack.
“Pups” are the young who try to act like bitches and alpha wolves. Pups will try hard to act old and hope they will be accepted by the alphas and bitches. The young will fight the older wolves just to find a place in the pack’s hierarchy. In a lot of ways, the pups are the scariest of the pack because they are trying to prove so much. The alpha is comfortably on top, the bitches are content, and the betas are fine as long as the alpha and the bitches keep them around, but the pups don’t want to grow up to be betas, so they are biting and clawing their way to the alpha or bitch spot.
Prayer
St. Ailbhe,
I am a member of a pack.
We hunt together and are mighty.
We let our hair grow long so that we stay warm in the long NW winters.
We will not let other packs into our vast territories.
This territory is ours till we die.
Even our pups can only accept our way of life or go away and enjoy electronic dance music.
Most pups leave,
For we are a very closed and traditional pack.
We are becoming fewer and fewer as our pack dies off or when we ostracize one of our own.
The lone wolves usually end up with wives and kids.
How tame.
Let us be wild and dangerous forever!
Amen.
Craft
Wolves are a symbol of raw nature, the moon. Combined with lunar lightning, the image of a wolf can bring on a whole strength to one who dares to wear such religious iconography.
What can a wolf be on, and what is the power you get when you harness it?
XXL black t-shirt: wearing one of these along with your Doc Marten shorts and Doc Marten boots will make you a juggernaut goth street bouncer. You either are checking IDs at industrial night or are fighting block to block, or petty crimes using the combination of strength and Native American mysticism.
Driftwood clock with wolves painted on: Having power over time is essential to the wolf. Being able to slow time down with discretion, whether it’s past digressions or the important project you are currently doing. A wolf stalks its prey with patience until the prey is tired, cold, and completely exhausted, and then the wolf finally springs into action.
Wolf pendant necklace: coupled with a crystal, this adds +3 to all your attacks – especially with hair flicks or the single finger tucking locks behind the ear wave attacks.
Courderoy hat: This hat gives the wearer the ability to scare people into believing the hat wearer has confidence. This mask of faux-confidence will lead people to believe that everything they say is the undisputed truth. There will be confusion when the wearer doesn’t wear the hat, so if you get this hat, you can never take it off. Or you find out that you never needed the hat in the first place, and that the fake confidence was in you all along.
Goal
If you get the wolf in your totem, know you are going extinct. You didn’t keep the pups interested because you just wanted to be alpha and impress the same old bitches. You’re of a breed, a meaningless breed of animals, that every few years or so we try to reintegrate into the ecosystem. The problem is that humans are now part of the ecosystem, and that doesn’t allow for wolves anymore.
Give up and enjoy things outside your pack’s interests, or you will become forgotten history.